Its still the same feeling, im still in a state of dilemma.
It is that sinking feeling you get when somebody punches you hard on your stomach and forces the air out of there.
even when evrything apparently is fine, i am cribbing, i don't know for what...
what does life hold for me, a bunch of painful cribbing phases???
do i ask too much out of life?
i know i can be happy with what i have with me at present.
i really don't need much.
my needs have never been too much or too great.
i accept everything that life gives me, be it shit or flowers.
yet and yet again i keep on thinking about what life used to be and what it is now.
and everytime i think about it, the past always shines better than the present.
which leaves it to the fact that the future would be worse, who knows??
the fact is that, even though im not too much emotional otherwise, i really cant let go off the past and each and every memory associated with it, good or bad, it doesn't matter much.
the past is something that holds me from moving forwards.
the present doesn't interest me much, cause tomorrow it will be past and the memory of this present would then linger in the past.
i guess the dilemma would be an eternal one cause people like me can rarely come out of it.
1 comment:
Very interesting article... I like the way you put your emotions... here's my two cents worth... Well said... but I say it's just one perspective of life... I don't know what happened in your past or what's happening to your present but you will come out successful in your future... Just change the way you see at life... Instead of cribbing, keep a bold face and try to face it bravely... As they a character or persona is like a diamond... unless it's put to the grinding stone it won't shine... if there is no grinding it's just another stone... Each one of us is a Diamond... it's the ammount of grinding and the kind of grinding that decides how much one shines... take each tough situation like a challenge... develop that fighter instinct within you... divide every thing and try to conquer each situation as U get it... I'm sure U'll come out a winner... from what I know, you are already a fighter... Just hang on... and take it from me... the future is bright and shining... so don't shun difficulties and as in Pink Floyd's words "Shine on your crazy diamond".
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